I was feeling OK today until Adam dropped James off. He stayed for about half an hour (which is not a problem). We were talking as civilised human beings and then her name came into it....
We were talking about the holiday and then I asked him to have our dog, Storm, whilst I was away. He replied he would let his friend look after him as he probably won't be at home anyway. Stupidly, I asked why. He said "i'll probably be staying at Chells" ... oh ok, fair enough.
I then asked if he had met her child yet (as he would obviously see him if he stays for a week!), he said no but it won't be long as they have been together for 4 weeks now. Funny that, we only split up 3 ago... He asked if I would be bothered if she met James, I said yes as it's far too soon. He defended himself but I said that 4 weeks is still too early and I don't want him to meet her. I told him if I ever found out that she had met him before Adam spoke to me about it, I wold string him up by his balls from the ceiling. I think he listened then.
THEN we were talking about money, which is very very tight at the minute, and he said he would only be working 3 days next week as got wednesday off. I asked why, he snapped "because I have" to which I replied "alright, I was only asking!". "Chell's coming back from holiday so I booked the day off" how lovely?!
So anyway, the reason I am writing my blog is because I am feeling down now and the only reason I can think of is because she's been mentioned. I don't care he has moved on anymore, it really doesn't bother me but I don't want to hear about her or their stupid new life together. I also DO NOT want to know he is staying there for a week as then certain images come across my mind and make me sad.
I just want to move on and get on with my own life, maybe that will stop this feeling. I don't even want a boyfriend as such, just some good male company who pays me a little attention. I want that 'honeymoon' feeling again.
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